No.90 - Written Words

words are written most of the time to get messages through;

be it a straight-forward message or a 'crooked' message

as long as it gets to the person it is meant for.

often enough, i write them wherever i feel like where the person should be able to receive the message, taking the risk of the person might not get the message/meaning of it.

often enough, i see people write things that i feel might be meant for me, but not having much clarity whether it is really meant for me or not.

that is problem with written words - they don't convey the meaning straight to the person and don't have the exact meaning that is to be conveyed.

but....words are not easy to be said, especially at the wrong time/place/person.

just need a little courage, i think.

No.89 - I'm Just A Human

yes, i am just any other human being, nothing extraordinary.

yes, i am just like you, you, you, you and you.

yes, i also have feelings, just like you.

yes, i know how to love, like, hate and cry.

yes, sometimes i feel what i should feel and sometimes i don't feel what i should feel.

yes, sometimes i feel what i shouldn't feel and sometimes i don't feel what i shouldn't feel.

yes, i have my strengths and weaknesses.

yes, i am sorry for my feelings: for those around me when i put my own feelings above theirs and for myself when i put others' feelings above mine.

After all, I'm just a human - trying to learn from my mistakes.

No.88 - My Best

i have tried my best, but it never seems to be enough. what more can i give or do? try to understand how much things i gave up for this; how attached i am to all this now; but i guess you all will never understand this, MAYBE one day when you all have such strong attachment, then you all will understand. for the time being, i will still pull myself through this and emerge victorious for as long as i am conscious with whatever i am doing.

No.87 - Sometimes

sometimes i have all the time to just sit back and relax, enjoy a movie with crackers.

sometimes i have no time at all, to even catch a 10-minute-nap.

sometimes i am so happy that i do not have a worry at all.

sometimes i am so upset and tensed that whatever comes my way will be ignored.

but in the end i realised that life is all about sometimes.

sometimes it is all about ups; sometimes it is all about downs.

THIS IS LIFE.