Friday, December 30, 2011

No.97 - The Gift

If you could wish for one gift this Christmas, what would it be?

"Time is more precious than gold, more precious than diamonds, more precious than oil or any valuable treasures. It is time that we do not have enough of it; it is time that causes the war within our hearts, and so we must spend it wisely. Time cannot be packaged and ribboned and left under trees for Christmas morning. Time can't be given. But it can be shared."

From The Gift by Cecelia Ahern.


on the eve of New Year's eve, i finished reading this book.
a perfect tonic for this year-end season - time for reflection (perhaps) to know what's undone and need to be done in the coming year.
but most of all, salvage all the time we have and do whatever we can do (instead of regretting of what can't be done or what should have been done but not done)

before ending this post, just summing up that year 2011 is a beautiful year, well, every year IS a beautiful year - no year is the same like another year, just like no patient of the same disease will come exactly with the same presentation.

so, thanking God for the beautiful year and the years to come.

Happy New Year! (in advance)

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

No.96 - Good to Evil

has turned from .......


for a change? no, i don't like it too.

*trying to go off for soul-searching*


hope to be back soon....

Monday, October 24, 2011

No.95 - Something That You Love


IF at the situation that you're dying, what you wish you are doing at that moment?

i think the best would be :

-doing something that you love-

because that's what you love to do. if you die without doing it, you'll die with regrets.
because that's what you love to do. you're happy doing it, thus you'll die happily.

***** *****
Rest in Peace, Marco Simoncelli





Sunday, September 25, 2011

No.94 - Cheesy Lyrics

just how cheesy lyrics can be.... (at least for me)

My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note, oh oh
Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

I only pray you'll never leave me behind
Because good music can be so hard to find
I take your hand and pull it closer to mine
Thought love was dead, but now you're changing my mind

music can be very healing at times

Saturday, September 17, 2011

No.93 - The Gift of Life


to be able to wake up every morning, it is a gift of life.
to be able to complain of what you do not have, it is a gift of life.
to be able to be thankful of what you have, it is a gift of life.
to be able to go to bed and fall asleep, it is a gift of life.

questions after questions i am asking myself, upon witnessing childbirth, be it normal delivery or the Caesarean. whatever we learned in theory classes were proved true. the most beautiful thing to see is the appearance of the umbilical cord itself.

just how two tiny cells join together and form something as big as the size of myself now.
just how a fetus stays inside the womb of a mother, filled in a sac of fluid.
just how a fetus has to come out once it reaches full term.

everything is placed/set/programmed/laid out properly. the whole process of childbirth, beginning from fertilization, implantation, right to delivery of the baby safely.

oh, how wonderful and lovely is the gift of life from God.

Friday, August 19, 2011

No.92 - New Method of Study

1st week of Year 3 has come to an end. that's fast. even with briefings/orientation in the evenings, i felt so exhausted by night.

though i will still be facing the books like i used to, this time there is a new method of learning - patients.

i admit that i do have slight problem speaking to patients, still a little lack of confidence. but when i managed to brave myself, there comes language barrier. i am a chinese and my patient is a chinese, but we spoke in bahasa. excellent, right?

but this new method of learning is really interesting. it is not so one-way like reading the books. and it is easier to learn and understand and remember.

so, to make full use of this source of information, i gotta be more confident to speak and brush up my chinese.

i have a very long journey ahead of me!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

No.91 - Next 20%

its time to continue my journey after a month's of rest. not exactly rest though, had a lot to do, but all worth it and enjoyable though tiring, especially traveling.

traveled like i never traveled before, north, south, east, west. experienced things i never experience before. glad i had the opportunities. learnt a lot.

now its time to get back to serious matter. completed 40% of it. now off for another 20%. this time it will be really different, time for application of what i learnt before. less room for mistakes, bigger room for improvement.

gotta equip myself with more knowledge and better social skill.

i will try to believe in myself more from now onwards, with guidance from above.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

No.90 - Written Words

words are written most of the time to get messages through;
be it a straight-forward message or a 'crooked' message
as long as it gets to the person it is meant for.

often enough, i write them wherever i feel like where the person should be able to receive the message, taking the risk of the person might not get the message/meaning of it.
often enough, i see people write things that i feel might be meant for me, but not having much clarity whether it is really meant for me or not.

that is problem with written words - they don't convey the meaning straight to the person and don't have the exact meaning that is to be conveyed.

but....words are not easy to be said, especially at the wrong time/place/person.
just need a little courage, i think.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

No.89 - I'm Just A Human

yes, i am just any other human being, nothing extraordinary.

yes, i am just like you, you, you, you and you.

yes, i also have feelings, just like you.

yes, i know how to love, like, hate and cry.

yes, sometimes i feel what i should feel and sometimes i don't feel what i should feel.

yes, sometimes i feel what i shouldn't feel and sometimes i don't feel what i shouldn't feel.

yes, i have my strengths and weaknesses.

yes, i am sorry for my feelings: for those around me when i put my own feelings above theirs and for myself when i put others' feelings above mine.

After all, I'm just a human - trying to learn from my mistakes.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

No.88 - My Best

i have tried my best, but it never seems to be enough. what more can i give or do? try to understand how much things i gave up for this; how attached i am to all this now; but i guess you all will never understand this, MAYBE one day when you all have such strong attachment, then you all will understand. for the time being, i will still pull myself through this and emerge victorious for as long as i am conscious with whatever i am doing.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

No.87 - Sometimes

sometimes i have all the time to just sit back and relax, enjoy a movie with crackers.

sometimes i have no time at all, to even catch a 10-minute-nap.

sometimes i am so happy that i do not have a worry at all.

sometimes i am so upset and tensed that whatever comes my way will be ignored.

but in the end i realised that life is all about sometimes.
sometimes it is all about ups; sometimes it is all about downs.

THIS IS LIFE.