No.93 - The Gift of Life

to be able to wake up every morning, it is a gift of life.

to be able to complain of what you do not have, it is a gift of life.

to be able to be thankful of what you have, it is a gift of life.

to be able to go to bed and fall asleep, it is a gift of life.

questions after questions i am asking myself, upon witnessing childbirth, be it normal delivery or the Caesarean. whatever we learned in theory classes were proved true. the most beautiful thing to see is the appearance of the umbilical cord itself.

just how two tiny cells join together and form something as big as the size of myself now.

just how a fetus stays inside the womb of a mother, filled in a sac of fluid.

just how a fetus has to come out once it reaches full term.

everything is placed/set/programmed/laid out properly. the whole process of childbirth, beginning from fertilization, implantation, right to delivery of the baby safely.

oh, how wonderful and lovely is the gift of life from God.

No.92 - New Method of Study

1st week of Year 3 has come to an end. that's fast. even with briefings/orientation in the evenings, i felt so exhausted by night.

though i will still be facing the books like i used to, this time there is a new method of learning - patients.

i admit that i do have slight problem speaking to patients, still a little lack of confidence. but when i managed to brave myself, there comes language barrier. i am a chinese and my patient is a chinese, but we spoke in bahasa. excellent, right?

but this new method of learning is really interesting. it is not so one-way like reading the books. and it is easier to learn and understand and remember.

so, to make full use of this source of information, i gotta be more confident to speak and brush up my chinese.

i have a very long journey ahead of me!

No.91 - Next 20%

its time to continue my journey after a month's of rest. not exactly rest though, had a lot to do, but all worth it and enjoyable though tiring, especially traveling.

traveled like i never traveled before, north, south, east, west. experienced things i never experience before. glad i had the opportunities. learnt a lot.

now its time to get back to serious matter. completed 40% of it. now off for another 20%. this time it will be really different, time for application of what i learnt before. less room for mistakes, bigger room for improvement.

gotta equip myself with more knowledge and better social skill.

i will try to believe in myself more from now onwards, with guidance from above.

No.90 - Written Words

words are written most of the time to get messages through;

be it a straight-forward message or a 'crooked' message

as long as it gets to the person it is meant for.

often enough, i write them wherever i feel like where the person should be able to receive the message, taking the risk of the person might not get the message/meaning of it.

often enough, i see people write things that i feel might be meant for me, but not having much clarity whether it is really meant for me or not.

that is problem with written words - they don't convey the meaning straight to the person and don't have the exact meaning that is to be conveyed.

but....words are not easy to be said, especially at the wrong time/place/person.

just need a little courage, i think.